I Vant to be alone?

Well. That sucked.

I just went with the wrong people. I was up and raring to go- to sing songs and try out everything but…the people I went with were hungry. Or tired. And didn’t really have much they wanted to do. Everyone around me after ax have pictures of all the fun they had. And I tried within my means to enjoy myself. But this year I just feel like I spent a LOT more money and had a significantly less enjoyable time than last year. Even if I did have better cosplay.

Day 3 I was really annoyed by it and left my group for a few hours so I could just wander around alone. My feet were killing me and I had no one to squee with- but that’s okay. The pain was a reminder of how fun it was, and I was a lone otaku for most of my life. I don’t need friends to squee with me- I’m good enough at it alone. And I think perhaps next year I’ll just plan on being alone.

Anyway, my time alone was arguably the best I had all weekend (minus some alone time spent with a certain young man who shall remain nameless). I normally anticipate after I get home from these cons to be really sick because I stayed up late, doing lots, running on little sleep, and waking up early. Yeah I didn’t really do any of these things. Late like 2am, but woke up at like 10. :/ that sucks. We didn’t do much but I still bought a 2 day pass.

And this is the first time EVER I am going to complain about not being paid for all this. I drove back and forth between the con at least 6 times, and paid all the parking fees each time. I didn’t ask for help and I should have. I save up for this one event so I can do stuff like this without worry, but after babysitting for 5 days (Wednesday to aprox. Sunday) I want a little help. >/ monetarily or otherwise. But I’ve NEVER complained about all that before and I doubt I’ll start doing it publicly now.

Another beef- 5 people stayed at my house Sunday night. A whole new set of people that stayed Thursday. So none of the people staying with me have any idea how long I have been hosting for. And I got a phone call Monday on my drive home (about 7pm) saying THEY STILL HADN’T LEFT YET. Did you know they actually wanted to do another family dinner in Little Tokyo?!?! OHMYGOSHGETOUTOFMYHOUSE. Someone reminded them that my roommate and I might like our house back now kthxbye but it goes back to my earlier blog here about me working for my life and them not. The difference between being an adult and still living at home. How nice and charming Hotel Venus is- for you. But I’m getting worn out again. Gonna have to close the doors. Or at least make a policy that you may not stay on Sunday. That’s Vchan time. It’s supposed to be a day of peace and privacy. That’s why I don’t like going to parties on Sunday night. Dinners or whatever. I stay up too late and feel like my nice quiet day has been wasted. But this is why I’ll never get a boyfriend or fit in with normal society. I just like my privacy and peace. I want to be with the people I want to be with- not a lot of strangers.

Grrr. All I wanted was to sit with a cute boy and watch my new movie. Instead I’m cleaning up after the ruckus and waiting for them to pick up their stuff.

I think a nice AX would have solved this. But I really feel like it was a fail.

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrg. I really want a boyfriend…and I think others are starting to notice I need one. It’s a big topic of conversation it seems these days: getting Vchan a boyfriend. Sigh…

Just let me die alone so I won’t find out what a fail I am.