Tuesday, October 8, 2013

WE ARE NOT

I feel like I have to fix everything. In truth, I don't know what I could do to make the situation easier. I'm making my best attempts to invite and include you as often as possible, to make you feel welcomed and appreciated by me. I've complimented you, I invited you to meet my friends, I invite you to whatever and even on Sunday, when you couldn't be here I made an effort to visit you because your car broke down. I never reject or ignore you intentionally. You've jumped at me to suppose I'm meaning something more than I intended when I explain OVER AND OVER that I don't. If you feel as though I'm resisting you it might be because we are not in a committed relationship and I have no obligation to let you be close to me. If you felt resentment (although if so, I wouldn't think it's from anything I'd done recently) it's because you repeatedly ignore my requests for space. So then how am I stuck with tending to your emotions? I am having a very difficult time in my life and I am NOT at liberty to tell you all the reasons why. In fact, it's for your own good that you don't know. So how is it that I'm protecting you and I STILL get attacked?

Okay, I give up. I can't be both the emotional one and the smart one that guides you through the process of how to calm me down. Look, you're a lot smarter than me. You are going to have to tell me what I should do. Because I can't think of anything else.