Dispite being thin...

(warning, picture heavy)

mmmm…

I have a lot on my mind. But I’d like to avoid all that for a second. I mean, I COULD write a convoluted message about how I’m feeling this way or that and I’m worried about you and me, and what should I do to rid myself of these feelings or something. But today I’m thinking straight forward. If I try to write about this stuff without giving anything away, I’ll likely fail. And I’ll end up saying things I really mean that I shouldn’t. Lol. Image control always. Besides, I know how I’m feeling and I don’t feel the need to see it in print just yet.

Lol. I don’t like pictures of myself. Someone once called Sarah Jessica Parker how I feel about myself- Hot body, weird face. Okay, well I don’t feel like I have a hot body but I can concede to some compliments, like I know I’m thin and have long legs. Can’t help that. But what I also can’t help is my weird face. How anyone considers kissing me I’ll never know. I guess that’s why they close their eyes when they come near. Lol

Sooo I saw some pictures of myself in a Sexy robin costume. I was so incredibly uncomfortable in that costume- but mostly because I was with a group of strangers, none of whom were offering much reassurance. And even after the pictures came out, It obvious I couldn’t be sexy for people who I don’t know. I can be sexy in private, but this was a fail because now when my friends take a look at them (and btw I’m not spreading them any farther than it has to go (with one exception)) they will think I can’t be sexy at all. In the end, I conclude I’m a poor model.

They are selling it
Blog post about it

Samples they didn't use that prove my point.

And btw I think that batgirl is gay...














I also got back pictures from the cosplay shoot of Akita Neru. There should be more to come from john, but Gilbert finished his fast and they are now on display. Observation 1- aino really is good at this. 2- maybe I really should look into fake eyelashes. O.o 3- my face is too long for most characters. 4- I could have committed to the expressions more but I was (ONCE AGAIN) nervous and screwed it up. 5-I really shouldn’t cosplay. I might have the body for it, but not the face to match any character like chiyo. I’ll always be Casey.

To me, they looked like a professional woman who wanted a day of play and dressed up in her employees (actors) clothes. Lol “Oh director, take off that wig it’s time to shoot the REAL players!” Meh. I won’t stop, I’m in too deep. But I’ll keep my expectations low and pick cosplays that match me more closely. Or ones that wears masks, you know, whatever.


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