This week is AX

frik. It's cold in here.
and it's cloudy outside, but if the bonfire gets canceled I'm not makeing a new FHE plan. lol. I'm taking my car into the shop tonight because the Light came on and it scares me half to death anytime something goes wrong with my sweet car. But while I wait, I think I'll call someone and ask them out to dinner or something.

I hope I have enough friends to do that lol. ANyway, It's nice to not have to go to FHE. Not only am I not a fan, but I'm also not a fan of Bonfires. and Not a a fan of Bonfires when it's cold outside. (even though I conciously know that it's events like these that will help me get married I can't help it. My style of communicating is hindered by not being able to see people. I'm just no good and I hate going home at the end of the night feeling like a social failure. again.)

Yeah, I'm not a big out-doorsy girl.

holy I'm about to turn 25.

sooo AX is this week. I'm more nervous than excited. All my friends who I went with last year... well it seems like it won't work this year. Emi isn't coming at all, Aino and I have work day 1 and she won't be here day 3. Chris hasn't talked to me in over a month and something makes me think that won't change in the next week, and I'm not looking forward to anything on the AX schedual. I don't like Gohs as much as events- I'm not easily star-struck. So I'll end up following nice people, until the night. when they go off to party and drink and dance. eh, I'm not really very good at any of those things. :/ This can't be fun. and truth be told, I'm a little scared this year of goshujin-samas and weird photo-stalkers. My cosplays are a little more risque and more accurate. I don't want to be alone. But then, isn't that the theme of my life?

I'm nervous....