Count for me?

It was one of those BAD evenings where I cancel my plans so I can get somethings done and end up doing nothing. Not even the basics of eating and dressing. It occurs to me I do less when I'm feeling overwhelmed. Just stop doing everything instead of juggling what I can. And since I lost my precious ipod (I'm still very very depressed about that) I've had to put all my plans for the month back into a calendar... which made me realize how little time I have. Christmas parties, Vel's graduation, buying gifts for the family, sending boxes to England, and unfortunately .. dates. But not always with the right people and often, not enough to make everyone happy. Finally Jubei asked me out (after 4 years it's about time) and Alex set a day he wants to take me to take me out. I haven't seen T***** in weeks even though I'm pretty sure we were going somewhere with that. But he's busy or I'm busy... it doesn't seem to bother him. But M***** came over randomly on Sunday basically to ask me to take him back. But the answer is still a fervent 'no'. I'm not anyone's fallback plan.

But I have this weird cold thing that only is effecting my voice and my energy. I'm going to see my doctor this Thursday to see how I'm progressing with the medicine... and to weigh me. I don't think I'm doing any better than 3 months ago. Worrying about that makes me (get this) not hungry. Just as when I'm busy suddenly I do nothing. Just nerves. fear taking over again.

Someone count to three for me. It's the only way I can medicine I don't like. Monday I asked Jeremy do it . He counted 1, 2, 3 and I took the yucky medicine.

I need someone to count to 3 for my life. Ready to get out of bed Casey?
One
Two...
THREE!