No texts.

Huh.
It's... I don't know how I feel about this. Today I recieved no text messages from anyone. I thought my phone had died or may have been on silent, but no- not one. At least not from a real person. I got an automated message that turned out to be spam.

I didn't even really chat with anyone today. Jeremy came online around 7pm to ask me how my weekend was but that's about it. A few empty sentences. Of course, writing this will guarantee I get no more for the evening and since it's already almost 10pm, it wouldn't make a huge dent anyway.

Most of the day I spent fretting about this new problem I have at work. But wondering about how long I'll be there for does make m e want to work harder. I didn't go home til around 9. I also spent a good amount of time imagining things I would say to Aino to help her understand what a royal pain she's becoming. I love her, but her immaturities are running a little rampant and it's getting on my nerves. Is there a kind way to say that? Probably not to someone without sense.

I was eating lunch today and I realized that other than my Dad and God, I don't have anyone to talk to right now. (I have Lisa, but she isn't really aware of anything going on and she's too busy right now for me.) And then I wonder, why do I have to think... "Does this make me sad?"

Yes, I confirm to myself, it does. But my instinct isn't to run out and beg for attention. On the contrary, when Jeremy chatted me this evening I thought to myself that I should let everyone move on. People touch base with old friends until they're gone and make new ones without thinking about it.

But I'm not really making any new friends. I'm just working. I don't know how I feel about this.